I think everyone comes to this mind splitting affair at some point of their lives. Well, at least almost everyone does. It would be the reason I've been blogging very little as of late coz I'm going through a mini-mid life crisis.
I've a degree in LLB (i.e Law) and I've gotten pretty decent results. I've slaved through 3 years of law school, and a year studying for the CLP (sort of a Legal License). That makes it a total of four years.
Now the obvious thing would be to work for a good law firm, get promoted, open my own firm or become a partner, earn lots of money, swim in it and smoke imported Caribbean cigars. Even though I''m not a smoker I bloody well am still going to buy scented cigars just for the heck of it.
This would ultimately be the most ideal, golden paved road with no second guesses.
The problem is, I've never really even liked law that much.
The second problem is I have no idea what I ultimately truly desire.
The third problem is I'm expected by family pressure to start working next month which is coming up in....10 days. Fuck my life.
I guess what I really want to do now is tryout for jobs I've always been curious about. Like being in the media , and mostly I'm aiming at trying to be a host or a presenter. Unfortunately without the proper degree and experience as I have no Em Cee experience of any sort, I've been met with totally NO response from all my applications. Its a depressing thought making me second guess myself. Maybe I'm not as awesome as I thought I was (ahem).
It makes me wonder how long will I hold on to being jobless? Ok, granted its only been a month but you've heard stories of people being jobless for as long as 6 months just trying to look for their ideal job which is pretty scary. Even my own brother took 4 long months before he finally landed a job @___@ (granted though the bugger was a lazy for 2 months) .
Isn't life difficult? Why couldn't I have been born forever lucky so that all I need to do everyday is buy ToTo, and win 4Ds'. Then at least the money part is solved and I need not feel so pressured and rushed to do something.
Sigh. I could really use some divine intervention right about... now.